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• 2011-10-10

  

  I need your grace
  To remind me
  To find my own

• 2010-09-24

  do they collide?”
  I ask and you smile.
  With my feet on the dash
  The world doesn’t matter.

  — <3

• 2010-09-02

  

  ABOUT TO DO THE DAMN THING.

• 2010-08-31

  

  So if you want to be with me
  With these things there’s no telling
  We’ll just have to wait and see
  But I’d rather be working for a paycheck
  Than waiting to win the lottery
  
  Besides, maybe this time is different
  I mean, I really think you like me

• 2010-08-27

  And as the summer’s ending,
  The cool air will put your hard heart away.
  You were so condescending..
  And this is all that’s left:
  Scraping paper to document.
  I’ve packed a change of clothes and it’s time to move on.

• 2010-08-26

  

  “A man will be imprisoned in a room with a door that’s unlocked and opens inwards; as long as it does not occur to him to pull rather than push.”

  -Ludwig Wittgenstein

• 2010-08-25

  

  Is it still technically called “letting go” if they were never yours?

  
  
  
  
  
  
  thank you, for everything <3

• 2010-08-21

  And there is nothing worse in this world than thinking you have a chance, when really, you don’t.

  — 

  

  
  
  After everything was all said and done in the end all I can remember is walking away from you, and desperately not wanting to do so. Your eyes, all I remember is your eyes being so dead. Such a beautiful person with so much potential, crushed underneath a weight he can’t seem to lift. I felt sorry, not because I thought it was pathetic by any means, but rather because I knew there was nothing I could do to fix you. I knew if I didn’t walk away I could be stuck right there with you. The sick part about this? Sometimes I feel like I’d rather be stuck. All I know is that every step I took made me farther away from you. And that, that’s exactly what I didn’t want. I still don’t know how I made it to my car and drove away from you. I will never forget the words you said, nor how tight your grip was when we hugged for the last time. Getting home later and seeing the red marks from your fingers still on my waist was the hardest thing to look at, yet I couldn’t look away.  Each time you called me back I wanted to run to you- to be everything you needed. But I couldn’t do that, because you need to fix yourself before anyone can be your everything again. I couldn’t stick around to watch you drown because you have to learn to float on your own. But most importantly, I couldn’t do it to my own heart because I knew I could lose myself in the process. I can’t be your everything. Not now at least, but hopefully one day.

• 2010-06-04

  

  Un zip your brain 
  And let me take a good look inside
  Show me your heart 
  Is that where you hide?
  You have got to let me in
  Before this eats you alive